“Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you.” — Psalm 37:5 (NLT)
Tonight, I found myself sitting with a question I’ve been carrying quietly in my heart: What should I write about today? There’s so much I could say. So many moments, lessons, and answered prayers I want to share. But more than anything, I want to write only what’s relevant, timely, and helpful to you—the person reading this right now.
In the past few weeks, I’ve seen this little blog slowly, steadily grow. Every time I see a new subscriber, I feel a quiet joy and deep wonder. What led them here? Which post spoke to their heart? Was it something God whispered to them through one of these stories?
I truly believe there’s no coincidence in God’s Kingdom. If you’re reading this, maybe it’s because God wanted these words to reach you today.
The Hidden Work Behind the Scenes
Here’s something I haven’t said publicly:
While I want to share the gospel through this blog, I’ve decided not to announce it on social media just yet.
Yes, it’s live and public—but I haven’t invited friends or shared it with my wider circle. And it’s not just because the site isn’t fully ready with images, captions, and email flows.
The deeper reason? I’m still working things out with the Lord—especially the battle within me: my fears.
Even though writing feels natural to me, I sometimes worry that I’ll be misunderstood or boxed into a label based on just a few paragraphs. I fear having to constantly explain or defend what’s in my heart.
These are real, lingering fears I’ve had to bring to God.
Choosing Stillness Over Striving
So instead of rushing to promote this space, I’ve chosen to keep writing quietly on the sideline—while I have my quiet time with the Lord, while I let Him continue to shape this calling, and while I anchor myself deeper in Him.
“Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain.” — Psalm 127:1 (NIV)
I’ve told myself: I will not move unless there is peace. Because this blog isn’t just for me—it’s for God. And if I want it to reflect His voice, not mine, then I need to walk at His pace, not the world’s. Not writing from a place of pressure, pride, or performance— but from a place of peace, purpose, and presence with Him.
Encouraged by the Faith of Others
Recently, I started reading through the “Christian blog” tag on WordPress—and I was amazed. There are so many people boldly sharing their faith, their stories, and their everyday moments with God. It felt like stepping into a world I never knew existed.
And honestly? I was encouraged.
Their boldness reminded me that:
Our calling doesn’t have to be perfect to be powerful.
It just needs to be surrendered.
And the more I read their words, the more God reminded me: You’re not alone in this. And your voice matters too.
Even Quiet Seeds Bear Fruit
And to my quiet surprise…
God has already been using this platform to reach people, even as I work on it slowly and keep it mostly private for now.
It’s humbling to see how He moves, even when I’m still hesitant. Even when the blog isn’t fully “ready.” He’s been quietly reminding me that obedience—even quiet, behind-the-scenes obedience, still bears fruit.
What I’m Learning
- Obedience sometimes begins in the quiet. You don’t need a platform to be faithful. You just need to be available.
- The mission starts with surrender, not visibility. It’s okay to build slowly. What matters is that God is building it with you.
- Fear doesn’t disqualify you—it’s just another place to trust God.You can bring your fear to Him. He doesn’t shame it—He transforms it.
Reflection Questions
- Is there something God has placed on your heart that you’re scared to share?
- Are you waiting for peace—or are you letting perfectionism delay obedience?
- What would it look like to surrender your gift quietly before stepping out publicly?
A Gentle Encouragement
If you’re in a season of waiting, hesitation, or fear—I see you. I am you. And I want you to know this:
- You don’t have to have everything figured out before you obey.
- You don’t need a big audience to be faithful.
- And you are not less valuable because you’re moving slowly.
- God honors obedience—even in the quiet.
So write the words. Record the songs. Play the instrument. Build the blog. Or simply sit at His feet and listen. Whatever He’s asking of you—do it with Him. Because He’s not just watching your journey—He’s walking it with you.
One faithful step at a time.
Faithfully,
Yani
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